The one I cried my eyes out

because of a crazy video on youtube about marriage.

I think that my expectations for love is getting lower and lower each day that goes by. All this thing seems so far from me that it hurts. 

I don't know why I watch those damn videos. I was crying so much I can't barely breath right now. 

I'm still sensitive about this topic. I think I need more time to digest, and maybe forget or do not care at all. I need distance and I'm not getting any. Okay, I need to calm my thoughts down. I need to setle my mind down. I need time for myself. I need... I need someone that understands me. 

Will I ever find someone to love me? 

I'm just tired of loving with my all heart and getting nothing in return. 

I'm just tired.

Mari.