I can only be me.

Hey world.
I'm busy even to complain about my life, see how things are difficult. So yeah.
First, I'm on my TCC period, so yeah. I'm running out of time fot this shit and I don't even want to do it anymore. I'm kinda depressed with it. But okay, I already have this shit to deal all day long, so not talking about it here.

I just came to vent here, cuz I'm exploding.

I can't stop compare myself to people. What can I do? I feel different from everybody else and I'm sick of it. And thus I can't stop comparing myself.

And gosh, I'm listening to Ed Sheeran! I'M ON IT SO DEEP hahahaha It's sad, really.

Okay, I'm not pretty, the everybody-thinks-you're-pretty kind. My clothes are not fashion. I'm always on my all stars, jeans and tees. So, yeah. My body is not that good in shape. I don't wear make up. Almost never. I don't date, never did. Nobody never told me they liked me. Nobody ever did this. I'm 23 and people still say that I'm young and that MY FUCKING TIME WILL COME. I'm so tired of this.  So so so so so tired.
People say this because they are not in my skin. Because ever single guy that fucking looks at them hits on them. They think they're pretty. And thet have boyfriends. And YES, everything go smooth to those people. And fuck, they are my friends, so I'm always the ugly friend. ALWAYS. DAMN. How can somebody notice me if they get all the fucking attention? How?

What can I do if my fave bands are important to me and I'm their fans and... And those normal girls are not this way??? ME BEING LIKE THIS IS SOME KING OF FORBIDEN TO BE LOVED??? UH? IS IT?

I'm so tired of being me, but whoelse can I be instead of me?