Hey, you!!
How's going?? I know you'll probably say that I'm really good cuz I didn't come here to write and blab about my shitty life, right? But not, you are wrong.
My life is still shitty, very shitty, btw. And I just don't come talk about it here cuz of the fucking time.
First I'm a mess right now, my panic attacks are back in full force. Like, really. Last Friday I had a really strong one and geeeeez, it was hard, man. I though I wouldn't survive that. One of the worst! Real talk here. So I notice I can't stop taking that fucking medicine now... Cuz I'm on a hard part of my life. So, next year we talk about stopping again. Not now, please.
Good point in all of this: I'm handling my PAs better and kind of getting used to it instead of complaining and feeling shitty about myself and "why me?" all the time. So I just deal with it, like: Okay, here comes another PA of mine and let's do this. And then it goes. So I'm forcing myself of not thinking bad about myself cuz of this. First cuz I'm sure this will never go forever. It'll always have a time I'll feel PA again, so if it's something that is with me and it's gonna be forever with me, why feel bad about it? I'm gonna face it the best way I can.
Another update:
I'm back teaching, bitches!!!!
So yes, I've always known I looooove teahing English and now was the time to come back. Not mental healthy speaking, but money speaking. SO, I had the chance and now I'm back.
So now, do the math:
Intern in the morning + afternoon
College at night + TCC (fucking big school work we have to do to finish the corse and get the degree) [ps: FUCKING HARD]
Teacher on Saturdays
The worst in all of this: I'm a procrastinator, thus I'm not doing my school work as I should.
Yep. I'm so screwd. I know.
At least my humor is good. I'm so fucked up I just gave up on being sad! YAY
