Told you so...

I don't even know why the fuck I try.
This will NEVER happen and things will never be good to me in these aspects. WHY do I even try???? Gosh, Mari, didn't life show you enough hints that you'll be alone forever???
Now I just need time to come back to normal, to completely forget.
I can do it. I've already done it a gazillion times. It's not that difficult for me. It's actually quite simple.
The only problem is the fake smiles I have to give while I'm in this process... Because it hurts, hurts a lot.

But I already suffered so much with this, I can do it again. And again and again.

After this, I'll for sure be blind and invisible. I'll never open my eyes for love again and no one will notice me. NO ONE. Cuz I'll be the best of the best in being invisible!

I promisse I won't love again.