I'm coming here more times that I've ever planed to come. And this is not good, because when I come here is because my emotional part is not good. Or that my panic attacks are back. Or that I'm depressed again.
Today I'm here just to state to all of you that I'm not normal. Not in a single way. And that I'm hell anxious and that I can't sleep properly for a week or more.
Tomorrow I'm gonna have the answer that's gonna decide whether this is a good thing or not.
I'm afraid of the answer, because life thaught me that I'm never gonna have someone by my side. And that this love thing is not for me. That no one will never be able to love me.
So, that's why I'm almost 100% sure the answer is a big fat no.
If the answer is yes, then I'll be proved wrong. And this year is gonna make history in my life. And maybe, just maybe I'm too dramatic.
But it's obvious that the answer is a big fat NO! I bet it is.
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