I can't describe

It's been a month (already, omg) and I can't describe into words everything I felt that day.

As I said, there are something I'd have changed, but if I couldn't, I wouldn't care even a bit.

I'm so glad I made my biggest dream come true... I'm actually the happiest ever. Hm... Really. I don't know what I would do if it wasn't for my boys that I love so much. I'd be so lost... so so so lost.

Maybe one day I can come here and write decently about April 21st 2013.

Frustrated

I'm this way right now... I'm kinda lost. Again.

After the sunny day comes the storms (?) It wasn't supposed to be this way, but it looks like it's gonna be this way for at least this year and the other one... I dunno if I can handle that.

I'm frustrated cuz I don't have enough money to do what I want to do.
I'm frustrated cuz I'm not talented enough to do what I'd like to do.

I need to find my way, really. I'm already 22 and I'm feeling this way, gosh... Things will only get worst, and I'm not willing to let it happen.

Because now I have the will I want, the will I need to cary on. But I don't have resources... Which is the worst thing ever.

I'm already tired of working and don't have a fucking money to spend on something I want, something it's gonna be good to me. Damn.

I'm frustrated.