like an illness

Hello everybody, how the hell is going??

Well, I'm just doing fine, hm... kinda fine actually. My life is a bit messed up, but I can handle this until the end of this year. Like, my life needs a change, I need a change, but I'll let this to next year.

So, guess what's the reason I'm here. HÁ I bet you can't guess. UH just kiddin'
You actually know quite well why I'm here. So, here we go again



Hi, I'm Mariana and I'm almost 21 now.
Do you remember when I was almost 20? Well, I remember like it was yesterday. 
Do you remember how my life changed since? You can bet I do.
Do you know how it affected me since? I can show you if you let me


Maybe I'm not the same person
Maybe I change for the best
Maybe not. 
Maybe is just a fucking phase


Sure is... I love you
Sure is... I kinda miss you, even if I've never seen you in person
Quite sure this is killing me, and turning me into a new person
Quite sure I didn't want this


But happened, and now I'm here thinking of you
Like when I was almost 20
Like now that I'm almost 21. And so on... 22, 23, 24...
... Like forever, I guess.


mari x

Proud

I'm so proud of myself I can't explain.
It's soooo damn cool when you do something that loads would consider impossible to reach someday. This feeling is amazing, you should try yourself, ya know.

And then, when ppl less wait you go there and DO IT. So amazing.

I'm proud of myself, and things are only in the freak beginning

x