you know what? +1

Being a fan is a shit! Srly, i think my life would be so much better if i wasn't a fanatic girl!
Of course, i get happy being a fan i cant explain, but... Happier you get, saddier you get tho.

Think i should be a lil more clear here... let's restart!

Okay, this is my sad sad story:

I'm a 20 girl, and since i was 15 i stopped falling in love with famous people! You know, platonic things! It just happened when i was a kid, and this was sure until... september this year!

FUCK OFF, DUDE! How did i let it happen to me? Wait... am i 20 and i am in love with a drummer? HAHAHAHA not funny heart, not funny!

So, imagine how i am feeling! As stupid as i can feel, not kidding! Srly i want punch me till i die when i start thinking of him. And of course, there's many things that makes me remember him, and BOOM i think of him all the time. Believe me, this is NOT cool, mainly when the person you are in love is annoying! A completly nerd and shy guy who is not as nice and sweet as you think and have the most fuck amazing smile ever. D:

*killing myself*

--'

See? I just CANT say bad things about him... it's like impossible.
Nah, it's not...
And this time i have reasons to be angry!
1- He's monosilabic on twitter! THIS PISS ME OF hauhauhuahuhauha
2- He lives really far from me (Brazil - Other side of the world .aka austrália)
3- He's annoying as i've already said!
4- He seems to be boring in person, hm.. that kind of guy that hates the fact you're a fan and not gonna talk to you because he thinks you're gonna scream till blows his ears.

Something like that.

And no, i'm not gonna put in a list the things i like about'im... its gonna be a huge list, and i am tired of tiping!


But the point is, some ppl think you are a crazy one who screams all the time cuz you're a fan! IS.NOT.LIKE.THIS! I'm not like this, i know its hard yo believe hahahaha but yes, it's the truth!

You know what's my dream? Sit and talk NORMALY with my idols. Its not asking too much, is it?


But, You know what? I just hate loving you.

you know what?

I just think life is so unfair! This piss me off!

Sometimes i just dont know what to do, it's like all the things that happen to me come to my way just to make me suffer, and then finally after a long time make me happy!

I dunno you, but i'm done with this! shit! Why? And in these days i'm really pissed with many things and many ppl! Unfortunately most ppl i like. And is exactly for this i get pissed!

Sure i'm not being clear here, and i don't wanna be, cuz words are just a way to show how you're feeling, and i am confuse!

I'm with that horrible feeling that NOTHING gonna work! as everything i wished in my life has been fail, and not gonna work! This scary me so much, you cant imagine how.


Okay, i need some new air, i need to get off this town any way, dont matter how! i just need.